Awkwardly Romantic

“That is all I really want for you:
Happiness…
Eventually this is what will be best for you.” 

Like you believe you know me better than
I do.
Even if true, you can
Seriously feel justified in taking control?

What authority have you?
Enough of this crap you do!

Tread not on this life of mine.
Even you cannot believe you have the right.
Like my will matters not, compared to thine. 
Look less on fixing me, but first fix yourself.

I used to have a blossoming rose, 
but that was an entire life ago.
Twas a thing of beauty and tenderness
till I did stoop so low…

Maybe it wasn’t the best,
maybe others were more enticing,
but it’s thorns did not sting; 
No pain did it bring. 

Metaphors fall apart
for nothing could describe you
You stole a permanent corner in my heart
and I can’t help but miss you…

It takes every mistake we’ve made, 
to make us who we now are, 
but I would make that trade
to regain my best friend

I wish I could tell you how sorry I am, 
I still think it over and over
The thoughts torment, the guilt strangles
I miss a lot of how we were. 

No, I don’t beg your love back, 
that left me before I left you
But I miss the only friend who understood
The one who knew me through and through.

It’s odd to think that 
I could go from
dreaming of marriage
to writing this poem…
I miss the little comforts and happiness
I miss the girl that did bless
this unworthy life of mine.